Welcome to TOYMAKER'S TOADSTOOL.
I have decided to make a new blog just for my weight loss journey at this time. May branch out at a later date.
I have been trying to get in the mood for weight loss for many months. Know full well what I should and shouldn't be eating and what exercise I should be undertaking but the comfort bug has had a strangle hold on my will power. Have bung ankles, knees and hips with huge spurrs on both heels just for luck.
I live in country Oz, have Multi Chemical Sensitivities which means that I cannot physically join any type of group or visit other people's houses,etc. Understandably, I rarely get visitors because most people find it hard to not wear perfumes, deodorants, hairsprays etc which are all poison to my system, among a million other things. Although I've learned to like my own company most of the time, I get very lonely periods in the depths of despair which seem to be getting worse and worse with me shutting myself away in my room for weeks on end. I cry uncontrollably at the drop of a hat, tears are never far from the surface and I know if I could just get my weight off I'd feel heaps better. I also know I need to lose weight for ME but my bad attitude keeps saying, 'why bother'. I've always been known for my optimism in all situations but optimistic periods are few and far between these days. I am happiest when I am wandering the countryside taking photos. I really do need to get the weight off though as I am having periods where my heart is almost jumping out of my chest, it is beating so hard, gastric reflux has reared it's firey head and I think I may be a borderline diabetic, having tests soon.
So here I am. In the mood and taking my first step towards a positive mind set.
