Rest In Peace Darling Captain
15/04/97 - 02/10/07
Slowly backing out of the driveway through a dark thick sea fog at 5am on Tuesday morning this week, to my utter horror, I backed over our beloved Captain. He walked up the driveway to where his lifelong mate, Dash was, licked her face and laid down and passed away. I can hardly bear to think about it whilst at the same time, can't get it out of my mind. I keep seeing him toddle up to Dash for his goodbye kiss.
The master was in full force with his abuse and name calling for 2 hours. I am a murderer, among other choice names. I can't get the sight of his carrying on out of my mind either. When I got home on Wednesday night, he'd gone off for sleep over at his mate's place in big town then left a succinct message on the phone that he'll be staying til at least Saturday. Hopefully I will have pulled myself together by the time he gets back. Right now, I can't bear the thought of even looking at him and would love to be anywhere but here when he gets back.
I took Cappy to a hillside over looking a beautiful beach area, (where I'd spent 8 weeks in the camper-trailor a couple of years ago whilst land developement was going on next to our house), and I made a lovely grave that other animals wont be able to get to and buried him in his favourite blanket where he can forever look out to sea.
It's just so sad, Dash who used to bark at a fly to get our attention hasn't barked since Cappy's passing. I'm trying to keep a steady medium where I keep her close to me but at the same time not let her get away with any of her tricks because if you give the little minx an inch, she'll take four ks. We are having lots of cuddles.
Captain was ten years old...toy.
9 comments:
Oh Bev I am so sorry - and am sitting here in tears! How terrible for you... Please do not blame yourself and don't let anyone else... It was an accident - which is just what it says an "accident"...
If I could come round and console you I would but am sending all my love to you and know Captain is fine where he is xxxx
Lots of love
Em xxxxxx
Oh Vic, I'm so very sorry to hear your sad news. How utterly awful for you. You have my deepest sympathy. XXX It wasn't your fault, accident happen all the time and this was just an unfortunate accident that couldn't be helped because of the fog.
Now when the master (I'd be calling him a few other names after two hours of abuse, pig comes to mind) gets home, if he starts up again, just yell back at him - how do you think I feel - don't you think I could do with a little comforting? He was my dog too? I don't think much of him for taking off and leaving you alone when you are obviously distressed over your poor doggie...
Big (((HUGS))) to you toy.
Vegie goes off in search of tissues 'cos her nose is running...tried to ring you but you weren't there.
Toy, what can I say but my thoughts are with you my friend...hugs and loves...
Am here if you need someone to talk to, you have my email.
Jen xx
oh beverlyann my heart goes out to you in your extreme time of sorrow...may Captain rest in peace...
You didnt mean to have that happen....and you are not a murderer...accidents happen and this was one of those things....your heart will be heavy now as you do feel responsible and that man you call a husband is an idiot as if you needed to feel worse than you did....my heart goes out to you and I so wish I could give you a hug...
Berrie xx
Bev I hope you are doing ok... I have been very worried about you all week...
Take care and talk soon
Luv mE xxxx
Toy are you still out there in the land of blogging :)
Happy New Year my dear friend :) May 2008 bring all you dream of :)
Luv mE Em xxx
Hi I just stumbled across your blog (through Em) and am sitting here crying - for your dog and mine.
I am so sorry for your loss and that it happened the way it did. I hope that you are ok. I notice that you have not blogged since... Please let everyone know you are ok.
Chris
Hi Everyone,
Thank-you all so much for your kind thoughts. I am so sorry for leaving you all hanging for so long. Heaps has been going on here ...good and sad that I've barely had time to turn around.Hopefully things will settle down soon and I'll be back at it in full swing...Then you'll wish I'd stayed silent as I tend to run off at a tangent in all directions lol. Hugs and kisses to you all...toy.xoxo
Just wanted to let you know that my blog has changed :)
http://sweetcherrilove.livejournal.com/
xox steph
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